It’s been awhile since I’ve written

08 May

I’m still trying to overcome the deep dark hole of depression I’m in. It’s so difficult. Nothing makes me happy. I have no motivation to do anything. It feels like things keep going from bad to worse. Between our hot water heater breaking and the medical bills pouring in from Logan’s sleep study, it’s been very overwhelming. We’re going to the Slipknot concert tomorrow night, I’m not even excited about it. Honestly, I really don’t want to go… I have no idea why. Logan thinks it’s my depression.

I have a stack of letters to respond to. They just keep pouring in as well. :/ I hope to face that challenge soon. I really need to get caught up. I haven’t even been writing in my journal. I just haven’t been in the mood to write anything…

As far as jobs, I have had no luck. 😞 It’s beginning to get very discouraging. I never heard back from CVS. Barnes and Noble and Petco told me I didn’t qualify. The Buckle wouldn’t hire me because of my availability. So I’m waiting on CVS and Target. I will apply to more places next week I suppose.

I went through Uptown Normal with my best friend and her Mom this afternoon. We explored one of the shops and looked around at the Public Library. It really lifted my spirits for the time being.

Sorry to keep everyone hanging; just going through a really tough time here.


Posted by on May 8, 2015 in Personal


5 responses to “It’s been awhile since I’ve written

  1. whyyymeee

    May 8, 2015 at 1:51 am

    keep your head up girl… I’ve been there and it’s really rough. The pain and the unwillingness. BUT you are going through this in order to make you stronger!!!!!! don’t give up

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  2. TimeDancer

    May 8, 2015 at 5:05 am

    I don’t know if my letter has made its way to you yet, but if you need a pick me up, I think it might be useful. I’ve been through depression before, for years on end. When you write about it, it’s like you take the words out of my mouth. I know it may sound silly, but I did my best (and probably badly) attempt at cheering you up in it. Haha. I understand though if I don’t receive a reply for a very long time. I just hope that when you do read it, it will brighten your day. 🙂

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