I sincerely apologize for the lack of posting. I have been going through a deep, dark, depression and it has really got ahold of me. My mail is really piling up as I try to deal with this.
The month of March was not a good month for me. My meds were increased only to make my mental issues go the opposite direction. I have taken a turn for the worst.
On April Fools Day, I sporadically quit my job. I was tired of the job itself and the way the business was ran. I feel like a quitter and a complete failure. I applied for 3 jobs the next day and still have yet to hear anything. Not to post my negativity, but I get the vibe I will never get another job or one I like or one that can pay the bills.
Luckily, my husband makes just enough for us to live and pay the bills since I am unable to draw unemployment.
I’m really hoping I can get this job as a Mail Sorter at my local Post Office. Being alone almost everyday while my husband works for 12 hours is really making me insane. My psychiatrist told me at my appointment today, he would really like to hospitalize me. This upset me even more. I feel like such a mental case. I haven’t written in my journal in over a week and I haven’t written a letter in going on 2 weeks. They changed my meds around, so hopefully we will see a noticeable change soon.
I’m really hoping this passes and I can get back into the groove of things and get another job. It’s so difficult for me to grasp this. I’ve had a job since I was 17. I’ve never been unemployed, so this is a very hard time for me.
Thank you for being a continued reader. Please pray for me as I face this rather difficult time.